I held the camera up

This isn’t the writing I thought I’d be doing when I opened the Chromebook but oh well.

I came close to making a video today. I sat in the car while the rain died down and I picked up my camera (phone) and looked at myself on the screen.

Then I put the phone down and came inside, because the rain had let up and I needed to get my computer inside while it was dry. And also because I didn’t know what to say.

But I nearly recorded another video. Very nearly.

ETA: I know nobody likes to hear this, but this is my blog.

I hate my fucking story the words are fucking stupid why did I think this year would be different I give up.

ep16 – How do I know what YouTube advice to follow?

I made a thing! I hope you enjoy it. ❤


I’ve been watching a lot, lot, lot of “how to YouTube” videos lately, and it’s hard to know what advice to follow! It’s easy to get overwhelmed, so I wanted to share what I’ve been able to parse out from what I’ve seen. I came up with a list of 9 things that I think are valuable pieces of advice, and even though I’m still a Baby Channel, I wanted to share.

I hope you enjoy!

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I’m pleased with my streak

I’m pleased with the length of the streak that I’ve been able to maintain, and so I may, at some point soon, stop focusing on keeping it going. That’s not to say that I will let the streak go, just that it’s a possibility. It was neat to keep it up for a month, and I don’t really have any need to keep it longer than that. So we’ll see. That’s a thing.

I have some alone time today, and I really, really needed it. I’m in a house with my family, whom I love, four cats and a bird, who are all very adorable, but I am an introvert and I am getting much, much, much less alone time than usual. Normally I have time after the kids have gone to bed, but they’re going to bed later and later, and my youngest has started wanting to sleep in the same room as I. It’s not that I want to do anything that shouldn’t be done in the same room as my kid, it’s just that I don’t want to worry about bothering the kid when they should be asleep.

I know, there’s some parenting skills in that paragraph that I need to address. I will, at some point, but it’s difficult. Parenting is hard, probably for everyone, but right now, it feels especially hard for me. I’ll get better at it as things go along.

So anyway. I’m getting my alone time, and it’s super helpful.

Let’s see. What else?

I would like to film today but I don’t have any ideas so that may not happen. I filmed yesterday afternoon, but I’m not sure I’ll use that. I need to re-watch it to make sure I didn’t say anything problematic. I talked about my Day Job a bit and how because of that I’ve been paying a lot more attention to local politics, and I went into some stuff that I know is controversial. I don’t want my channel to be like that, if I can help it, so I may skip that one. We’ll see.

I do plan on doing quite a bit of brainstorming and research for YouTube, though. I’ve already done a lot, and I’ve picked up quite a bit of good stuff. I just want to get everything in one place instead of scattered throughout a journal, which worked fine when I did that, but I’m almost done with that journal and so I’d like to start another.

The rest of the day is up in the air. There’s some paperwork that I need to sign and return, and that’s going to be a big part of this evening and tomorrow. Everything will work out. Just going to do my best and keep moving forward, because that’s all a person can do right now.

Thanks for stopping by! I hope you’re having a great day. 🙂

And if you’re not having a great day, I hope you’re having an okay day.

And if you’re not having an okay day, then I hope tomorrow is better for you.