Today is one of those days where I feel like I need to delete everything.
- blog
- youtube channels
Why?
I’m not good at any of the creative things, I hate facebook, and I never get on twit any longer.
I realize this is just a bad mental health day, but that doesn’t make it any easier to keep from deleting things.
The 215 blog posts aren’t enough. (The reason I keep starting these things again after deleting them is because I love the idea of having a really long streak of such things.) The 41 videos on the new channel and the 56 videos/75 subscribers on the old channel aren’t enough. (I don’t know why I started a YouTube channel, by the way. I’m not first, best, or different, just boring.) The fact that FB is the only way some people communicate isn’t enough.
I get it in my head to delete these things and I feel better, free, for a bit less than a hot second. Maybe a week or so. Then I think, wow, why did I do that? I could totally keep things going, I have so much to talk about!
Even though I know those days are just around the corner, still. Maybe talking about it will help. Maybe switching to a different format will help. (I’m very tempted at the moment to move everything to WP.com, domain included.)
The moral of this story is: see this boring, pointless content? This is what is in the pipeline! This is the kind of crap I put out! Nobody reads this save two or three friends. What in the ever-lovin’-heck is the point?
Nicki Gets Distracted 